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The Authorship To Your First Love Story and Heartbreak Belongs To You: Mother’s Day Edition

We are entering into the season of honor for parenthood, with the arrival of Mother’s Day and Father’s Day, which often evokes a wide range of emotions and expression of these primary relationships that mark our first love story or our first heartbreak. First up, of course is Mother’s Day. 

The relationship with mothers and children can be quite complicated. This has become more evident with social media playing its public part in the celebration and sorrow of this day, where we’re reflective on our experience of our mothers, which shapes our multilayered lens of motherhood.

Mother’s Day is a pretty straight forward and beautifully, honorable day when it comes with the gift of physical connection and emotional availability, as well as the ongoing life evidence of unconditional love. Even for those of us whose hearts are heavy with the physical departure of our mothers on this day, there is still a blessing in missing the physical connection of the nurturing relationship with your mother. There is a privilege of having a treasure chest of memories of her love that carries you beyond her earthly presence. 

This day becomes a bit more complicated when you have to mourn the difference between the hallmark gestures of motherhood and possible limitations and absences you actually endured.  There are individuals mourning the emotional and physical absence of mothers still living on this day, as well as mourning the forever lost opportunities for any possible joint healing and mending that wasn’t afforded prior to the loss of their mother. While people are preparing, attempting, or proactively healing these first love stories and heartbreaks; language to accompany this healing is constantly being explored, developed, and evolved. This is where it becomes important to remember that people’s relationship with their parents belongs to them. And though advice on how someone “should” be, feel, or speak about their parents might come with good intentions, ultimately it’s a hi-jacking of another’s journey to make sense and fit with your own (whether you have similarities or differences within your own maternal love story.) 

If you find yourself being triggered by how another expresses their feelings and experiences of motherhood, remain curious and follow through with why it’s causing a disturbance within you. This moment is more about a lesson and guidance to you than it is about a relationship you have no ownership of (even if that other person is a sibling…being born to the same person does not equate to the same experience of that person for various factors.) I implore you to show up in your truth of celebration, honor, and grief and allow others to do the same. 

A child’s physiological wellbeing is determined in utero from their mother’s physical and emotional wellbeing within her world, as well as how it’s nurtured once birthed or bonded (inclusive of motherhood via adoption and surrogacy) in the mother’s maintenance of her wellbeing. The depth of that visceral connection remains in the shaping of that child and their movement over the course of their life. Let’s remember the magnitude of the parent child dynamic and allow everyone the authorship to his or her first love story and/or heartbreak. 

Be blessed in your happy, memories, and/or healing this Mother’s Day! 

Written By:

Shameitra N. Green, LMFT

*Shameitra Green is a psychotherapist and founder of her private practice, Nexus Therapy, where she serves adolescents, adults, and families in Pearland.TX and surrounding areas. Shameitra’s client populations includes  individuals and families dealing with complex trauma and PTSD, survivors of neglect and sexual abuse, grief, and attachment disorders. Shameitra also provides trauma informed trainings and consultation to assist with agencies, schools, and trauma professionals in enhancing their trauma informed best practices.

The Tangled Web Of Grief In The Midst Of COVID 19

Grief simply put, but not as simply felt, is mourning the loss of how you know your world to be. And COVID-19 is all aspects of loss from physical, mental, emotional, financial, and spiritual practices. The grief of COVID 19 has struck us in that extreme visceral manner that frightens us the most, as it’s been sudden, unexplainable, unending, expanding, and debilitating. 

As I have been physically distant while socially connected, I have commiserated as the hours, days, and weeks have passed in the loss of celebratory milestone events such as birthdays, graduations, and weddings; communal outings such as sports, concerts, festivals; and self care regimens such as gyms, salons, and barber shops that offer joy in the midst of the mundane. All big, not small, because each of these moments represent the lighter side, the sighs of relief, and the answered prayers to the heavy lifting and demands of life. 

However, there is another side of living that is just as tender and finds itself being stolen away by COVID-19, and that would be in the memorialized traditions of those recently and increasing in years departed loved ones. 

The thing with grief is not only does the mind remembers, but the body remembers too. And often times grief is triggered because your muscle memory detects it’s been here before when evoked by a current situation while your mind catches up to the recall and connection of when.  If you are an individual who is experiencing the death anniversary (angelversary) of a loved one, or within the intense year coined The Firsts without your loved one, or in the most unfortunate place of having lost a loved one where the rites of passage/arrangements of a funeral or memorial is being delayed or shifted; these unforeseen times of COVID 19 has created an intersecting and layered mess of grief (as though it needed to be more tangled than this process naturally is.)

So here are some reminders to help tend to the multifaceted grief within the COVID-19 times:
1.) Stay curious to yourself. Initially your only job is to notice your emotions and their associated thought. This does not equate to needing to do anything about it just yet…just NOTICE so you can lend a name, a physical sensation, an energy, etc. to your being. 
2.) Try as best you can to think back to the most recent time or last time you have been here (felt this) before (again… the body remembers as well.) This can help you to not minimize or displaced your grief and give yourself a more accurate measure of your needs in your grief process.
3.) Allow for your emotions to arrive and exit. All emotions need is the permission to be acknowledged and accepted and what follows is insight into your process of allowing them come and go. What eventually happens is you give yourself evidence that feeling your feelings will not be the demise of you, which decreases you experiencing yourself as an emotional threat. This evidence becomes your resourcing and reminder that you will be ok on the other side of the emotional tsunamis of the ongoing grief process. 
4.) Continue to honor your traditions in remembrance of your loved ones as best as you can in what feels right for you. For some it maybe turning inward and removing the noise of the news and social media. For others it may be the lighting of a candle symbolizing your loved one’s light and presence, or taking some time to look at family photos to reminisce. Or it could simply be finding a safe place for a moment to let your heart express it’s missing and longing for your loved one through tears. Your traditions may shift during these times, but they do not have to be lost.
5.) Reach out to family and friends in transparency about your grief. We are all being stretched in our new normal, so normal anniversary check ins or check ins specific to your loss may shift some. Try not to take it personal and use this opportunity to show up for yourself in sharing what you need in support. Because the people who love you still want the opportunity to love on you as best as they can. 
6.) Remember to speak your loved ones names through memories and the missing of them. There’s a fear of being a burden or “Debbie Downer” during the grief process, and this can heighten in these COVID 19 times where we are all aware of collective struggles. However, there is also a collective empathy on the rise because we are on the same emotional continuum together. Grief is a collective theme right now and transparency is the open door to a virtual support group many didn’t know they needed until authentic connection made it so. 

This leads me to my last aspect of grief I feel is necessary to mention.  Many people might find themselves feeling better in their grief process, amid the woes of COVID 19, and please understand this is normal as well. Often times in grief people feel alone, as if the world keeps turning as normal while their whole world has been halted to a screeching stop and forever changed. Being that the world, in a sense, has been halted and operating in abnormal and unfamiliar ways, it’s possible for a grieving individual to feel more understood and connected in this universal disarray. It is human nature to want to feel understood in our most vulnerable moments, and the grieving process carried the emotions of and struggle with the experiences of social isolating and distancing well before we all simultaneously held the grievances of Corona (COVID 19) 

Written by:
Shameitra N. Green, LMFT
Founder of Nexus Therapy

*Shameitra Green is a psychotherapist and founder of her private practice, Nexus Therapy, where she serves adolescents, adults, and families in Pearland. TX and surrounding areas. Shameitra’s client populations include individuals and families dealing with complex trauma and PTSD, survivors of neglect and sexual abuse, grief, and attachment disorders. Shameitra also provides trauma informed trainings and consultation to assist with agencies, schools, and trauma professionals in enhancing their trauma informed best practices.